facebook stalking

So today, Heidi and I were searching people on facebook... Old boyfriends, guys we wished would have been our boyfriends, guys who wished they could have been our boyfriends, people we went to school with, people we had falling outs with, so on and so on.  Of course we both looked up ex boyfriends... hahahahah....ha! Heidi's looks "I think" better than he did when they were together... however the sun was shining on his face so it was hard to see the progressed rotting of his teeth.  Then we looked at mine from high school, and Heidi thought he looked better than when we were together and I thought he looked worse.  Honestly, I thought to myself "what was I thinking?".  What is funny is I actually think about him from time to time, mostly because we were friends years before anything happened.  Then we looked at our boyfriends' ex girlfriends, and let's just say we both thought "what the hell were they thinking?!?!" lol.  But of course, that is because no one can compare to us.  We then looked up this chick who we used to be friends with before we became the main characters of her drama world.  Seriously... this chick was CRAZY!!! Too bad her profile and pictures were private, I think she knows us too well. jk, but really I'm not, considering this blog is called  "facebook stalking". 
It's so funny to look at the people you once thought you knew, who you considered a friend, that you talked to everyday and then now you haven't seen or talked to in years.  I think my friends now consist more of people I went to school with but never talked to, which is crazy.  My oldest friend I have is still my friend today, which is crazier.  Why we spend our time looking at people we don't talk to anymore is beyond me, but I guess it is because we want to believe that these people have suckier lives than we do.  Thank God for facebook, because without it... Me and Hydes would be bored as hell!!! p.s. Heidi- we really should get a hobby. lol

new year comes a new start

2010 has come and is almost gone, 2011 is what I feel may be the real start of my life.  This year I want to make the changes I have been saying I will for the past 3 years.  I want to get healthier and maybe a little thinner in the process. :) I want to work harder than I have ever worked, not just for my body, but for my life.  I want to advance with my job, I want to start saving money for special things like vacations, new furniture, maybe a new car...  anything is possible.  I want to set more time aside for friends I don't get to see a lot, I want to spend quality time with my man, and I want to take my mom out on a "mother/daughter" day! I want to start living for today, instead of worrying about tomorrow.  I want to make everyday something special, and not live in regret.  This time next year, I want to be able to look back on 2011 and think "DAMN! this year was the shit!"  My life is good now, but I want it to be AMAZING! I am so blessed with everything and everyone I have, and it's definitely time I embrace it all!  I advise everyone to do the same!  May everyone embrace their own life's gifts and blessings, and really take the time to cherish it.  You may want to still change things sometimes, but no matter how great things are... there is ALWAYS room to improve and renew. 

with the bad comes the good.

FIRST BLOG!!! brings me back to when myspace and facebook came out.  Never really got into it until Heidi said "can I make you a myspace?", cuz back then she didn't have much to do.... man how life hasn't really changed. lol jk Hyde.  But, even for this I had to have her create it for me because I am not computer creative like she is.  Heidi btw is my oldest and best friend.  We have been friend for 13 years, and amazingly still friends.  I am the type of person that NEEDS to vent, and this just seemed like the perfect place to do just that!!!  My life pretty much consists of working, and don't get me wrong, I love my job, but there are things that occur there that make me want to smoke a carton of cigarettes a day!  We are not allowed to take breaks with people, we are not allowed to apparently dislike anyone, even if it is for non work related issues, all of our lunch times were changed so we can't take lunches together anymore, and sometimes I feel like exploding by the end of the week.  I work for a transportation company 40+ hours a week.  Every Monday I think to myself if I will survive to see Friday again.  Very stressful, but for some reason I enjoy what I do, just wish things were done a little differently.  People need to vent to one another especially when you work the same job and are unable to take a fucking cigarette break with someone.  I tend to find myself having a conversation with myself in my head on my breaks, which btw is not very appealing.  My room mate works there as well, so the one thing that is nice is going home and yelling at eachother about how ridiculous work was that day.  He is a supervisor though and has a way less stressful job than mine, so when he starts going off about our job, I know to just sit back and listen because in the end, no matter how bad my day was his was 10 times more stressful.  When I finally clock out at 6, I do think about how blessed my life really is and all I have.  That each day is a stepping stone to who I am and who I will one day be remembered for.  A woman we transport who I talk to all the time goes to 2 or more dr appts a day, she is wheelchair bound and has so many things wrong with her that I am too afraid to ask what they are.  Every time I talk to her though, she tells me how my kindness has made her day and how God has given obstacles to overcome because he knows she is strong enough to overcome them.  Her attitude towards life has made me realize, that there may be bad days, but with the bad comes the good.  This maybe an all over kinda blog, but it's my first one so whatevs!!!